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You don't want to be going into 2024 self-reliance, thinking you're something you don't.
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You want to be extra dependent on Him.
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You want to be looking to Him, the author and the finisher of your faith.
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Jesus said if your eye be single, what's a single eye?
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A focused eye, a steady eye?
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If your eye be single, your whole body will be full of light.
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Welcome to the City Light Church podcast.
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Thanks for joining us today as we look into God's Word and discover the hope and truth that he has for us.
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If you want to connect with City Light Church, feel free to visit us at CityLightNYCcom.
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That's CityLightNYCcom.
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Pastor Boyan Jansik and his team believe that the power of the Holy Spirit is already working in our hearts and minds.
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As you listen to today's teaching, remember that you are deeply loved by God, that you are surrounded by His grace and that he has a real hope and a future for you.
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Praise is the language of heaven.
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God, no, speak complainee, god, speak praise.
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And if you don't know how to praise, the.
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Lord, my heart goes out to you.
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I don't know.
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I don't know how to help.
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You have to be able to praise the Lord.
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It is a superpower in the spirit.
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You look at the Psalms.
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Everybody loves the Psalms.
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You know why, whenever you're down or sad or going through it, you always gravitate towards the Psalms, because they're very relatable and it shows man in his condition, up and down and all around, looking for God, sometimes feeling abandoned by God, going through lifetraps.
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But you'll notice praise is in every single one of the Psalms.
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You take a glimpse in Revelation and you take a glimpse into heaven and you realize the language that's spoken.
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There is praise.
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And when that evil day comes and maybe you're right now in that evil day, what's the evil day?
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It's the day you don't want to be having, but it comes Praise is what's going to get you out.
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And so you pardon me if I don't get a little concerned.
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I'm your pastor, I'm in bonds of love to the Lord to look out for you, to cover you, to protect you.
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I get concerned when if, after worship, with me encouraging you to praise, you still stand there with gorilla glue in between your lips.
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What's going to happen when it hits you on a Wednesday afternoon, what are you going to do then?
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You've got to be able to praise them, and right now you're in a safe space.
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If you can't praise them here, how will you praise them out there?
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Amen, right, when I say safe space, usher's go ahead and bolt the doors, lock everything down.
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No one's leaving until we're done.
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I do repeat myself a lot, I feel, I feel.
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But then I see some people that'll ask me a question that I've already answered 10 times.
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And then I realized, just right, like way after I'm so tired of hearing myself, some people are just starting to hear me.
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That's actually why Paul addressed this in the Bible.
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He said for me to repeat myself isn't burdensome to me, but for you it's necessary.
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What a relief for me and a conviction, because sometimes it is burdensome for me to repeat myself, but because I've repeated this for many, many years.
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This is what I'm about to say, which I've already kind of said God has given you power and put it in your mouth.
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He created this earth, he created the universe with His words.
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It says in the scriptures that all things consist and are held together by the word of His power, and it says you were made in the similitude of God.
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Death and life are in the power of the tongue, and those that love it will eat the fruit thereof.
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You have a power in your mouth.
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Your words that you speak, especially under the anointing, found it on the word of God.
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They go forth and they create and they carve a path into your future.
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So is it any wonder that there is that devil with a bottle of gorilla glue that likes to come and paste your lips together so that when you're going through it, or whatever mood you're in, you just hmm, hmm.
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You will not silence your way out of a problem, you will not.
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You read the Psalms and you see, the exhortation is always to speak.
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I will, you know.
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And many of the Psalms start out pretty depressing.
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You got to make it to the end.
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The first eight verses, the guy's just complaining, and some of the Psalms sound like a country song.
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You know, I got my, my house is in foreclosure, my car got repo, the wife left me, then my dog left me, but, but I will yet praise the Lord, amen.
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And it says to shout, shout unto the Lord with a voice of triumph Amen, hallelujah.
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So I know people like to relegate this kind of teaching into a particular type of Christianity.
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Oh, that's just not my style.
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You can have your style or you can have Bible style.
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I'm going to have Bible style.
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I don't want dead religious style and then I identify with that.
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No, there's God's style, the biblical style.
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Well, god, god made me shy.
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No, you might be quiet, but shyness.
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That's that scripture that says God has not given you a spirit of fear.
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That word for fear is actually timidity, shyness.
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God has not given you a spirit of shyness, of timidity, but of power and of love and of a sound mind.
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Certain thoughts.
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You can't stop with other thoughts.
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Somebody would say well, I'm having these thoughts, and the answer is think positively.
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How many of you know that doesn't work.
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You cannot interrupt thoughts with thoughts.
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You can only interrupt thoughts with words.
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And so my kids thankfully they've witnessed me from the little crib so they're not freaked out when randomly in the house, they'll just hear me shout.
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There's some Sunday mornings, and then just just look, the enemy's always pushing on you.
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You know that.
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He's all you got to push back.
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How do you push back?
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Put on some worship music in the background and let them do the work for you.
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It doesn't work.
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It just creates a nice ambience.
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But there are times when you have to.
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Jesus, your Lord, you're with me, your favor surrounds me.
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Hallelujah, and say it at the top of your lungs, say it with your whole chest, get to the flow of the anointing the manifest presence of God, get it from your toenails, oh, hallelujah.
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I'll do that randomly and then I'll check to make sure I didn't freak the kids out.
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They're playing somewhere.
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Oh look, and they just didn't even notice.
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Because he grew up like that.
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Amen, Hallelujah.
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When I go to help someone to pray, that is in that.
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That's stupor spot, not the stupid spot, but the stupor that, just in a rut, just you.
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It's like they're in molasses.
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Often I I won't pray for them, I'll pray with them.
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I'll have them repeat after me Because at the end of the day, no matter how anointed you are, the person you're praying for, they always have more authority over themselves than you do, and some of them haven't opened their mouth in ages to the Lord.
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They've opened their mouth to complain, but they haven't opened their mouths to the Lord.
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I know this because I know I go through it.
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I know what I have to push back against.
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The devil loves me when I'm quiet.
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If you're not speaking, you're not creating, you're not exerting back, the devil has no problem with you coming into church.
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And then you're sitting and you tell yourself, well, I'll just, you know, I'll receive quietly, or I'll just observe, but you're only getting 5, 10% then of what you could receive.
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You could get a breakthrough, so I'll pray with somebody in that state and I'll say, just say hallelujah.
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You know, hallelujah, that one word, it's the highest form of praise, that one word.
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And and you could see the tension and the frustration and the slowness as they finally open up their mouth to the Lord, which they haven't in weeks or even months it's like you can hear the crypt opening, a couple of bats fly out, the cloud of dust emanates.
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All right, now repeat after me hallelujah, and then thank you.
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But I meant to the person I'm saying now.
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But I appreciate any opportunity you take it.
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You could let a random one out at any point.
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By the way, in church it's legal, it's fine.
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Well, they, they, they.
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I'll say hallelujah, hallelujah.
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And it's like this little voice in the back of their throat, it's like the real them is trapped inside.
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Help me, rescue me.
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Yeah, you waited too long.
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You gotta speak.
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The enemy's speaking to you.
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He's lying to you, trying to fill your head with confusion, trying to belittle you.
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Put you down, put fear into your heart and your mind.
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Say it again, hallelujah.
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This time a little bit bolder, and they'll go.
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Hallelujah.
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The enemy's telling you God's gonna forsake you.
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You say God, you're good, god is good.
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You get them to say 10 positive statements from the scriptures out loud and the brightness is back in their eyes.
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But you get to decide.
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If I could praise him for you, I would.
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Sometimes I'm tempted to walk around the aisles and just jiggle jaws a little bit, just hallelujah, hallelujah, keep us in your prayers.
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We have a missions team.
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Is it 25 or 26 people?
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Now 26 with the latest edition, huh, who happens to be Victor, my son.
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That was the latest edition.
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I didn't plan on him coming, but Emily pushed me and said now she's been on so many missions trips and credits them with helping solidify her faith in Christ.
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So we have a team of 26 going to Guatemala.
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I'll be here next Sunday, but then next Wednesday, February 7th through the 14th, a team of 26 city lighters will be going to Guatemala to minister to the word of God.
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We've helped put up and pay for over 40 churches in the Yashil area around Neba, and so pray for us.
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We'll be doing children's evangelism as well during the day, handing out tons of school supplies, seeing the Lord come and bring his power.
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I want to read to you from Isaiah 55.
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This is known as the Great Invitation Ho, but today Isaiah was living in New York.
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That would probably be a yo or an Ayo is getting people's attention.
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Ayo, everyone who thirsts, come to the waters.
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And you who have no money, come buy and eat.
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Yes, come buy wine and milk, without money and without price.
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Why do you spend money for what is not bread?
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What an eternal question.
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Why do you spend your money on those things that don't feed you where it really matters, where it really counts, and your wages for what does not satisfy?
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Listen carefully to me and eat what is good and let your soul delight itself in abundance.
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Incline your ear and come to me here and your soul shall live, and I will make an everlasting covenant with you.
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The sure mercies of David.
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The Lord has prepared a table before us in the presence of my enemies.
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I'm making a decision.
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I invite you to also to partake of that table.
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My wife and I spent the last week in Tampa, day and night revival meetings.
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Tampa is where I went to Bible school and we showed up a day early, and so I took her around town and just showed her what my first year in Tampa was like, and I guess I thought I told you the whole story.
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But then when you're down there, more of the story comes out.
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And I was just reminiscing about the goodness of the Lord.
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He's so good and he has this ability to.
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When you give your life to him and when you trust him, and when you trust in him and lean not on your own understanding.
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Yes, he takes you and he directs your paths and he connects the dots for you, many of you.
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You're aware of where you are.
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You have a glimmer of where you want to be, with no idea how to get there.
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He's the one who takes you from point A to 8.1, 8.2.
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And then eventually to B.
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So often it's not a leap from A to B, but there's 10 mini steps in between A and B.
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You're not even aware until you get to B that the Lord was leading you the entire way.
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See, I got saved when I was 16 years old and called to the pastorate.
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About two weeks later I just knew in my spirit, went off to school, right there in Forest Hills High School.
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About two weeks saved and I'm in class and all I can see is myself ministering and preaching.
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I'm 16, I'd never, ever considered it.
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I didn't really even know what a pastor did, other than that guy up there who preaches.
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Shared it with the people who led me to the Lord, shared it with my pastor.
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Then they confirmed it, but I had no clear path on how to become a pastor.
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It's not like a coding course you take for nine months and you come out with a license and you're you know they have a funnel for you to go through.
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So I didn't know.
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But I didn't want to go now to regular university.
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I wanted to go to something to train me, but my parents were not.
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I mean, they were finally okay with me being a Christian, but they were not okay with me quote unquote throwing my whole life away and becoming a pastor.
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So I said please go to college so that you would have something to fall back on.
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Oh, I felt like that was such a compromise.
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So I went to my pastor and said what do you think I should do Because my parents want me to go to college?
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I'll never believe it.
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I thought he was going to agree with me.
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He just looked at me over his desk and he said listen to your parents.
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Ah, all right.
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So I went off to university and I was an ignorant ignoramus.
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I was doubly ignorant Because I didn't know what I didn't know.
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The Lord protected me so much.
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I didn't even know the questions I should be asking.
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One thing I knew was God had called me to pastor, but I didn't know how to move forward into the ministry.
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I didn't even know what training I would need.
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I would talk to some pastors, but everyone would have a different story.
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So that didn't help much.
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But the Lord, in His infinite wisdom, drew me into prayer and drew me into the person of Jesus, because Jesus is enough.
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He's more than enough.
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And so, finally, my senior year came about, and I had spent four years seeking Him, loving Him, getting into the Word, developing my spirit man, so I could hear His direction, hear His instruction.
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And then came the final semester of senior year.
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I still didn't have any idea what I was going to do with my life, and I said I was doubly ignorant, because I think I should have been more nervous, but half of it was the Lord gave me His peace.
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The other half was I didn't even know how lost I really was in the plan of God.
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I don't know if you ever felt that way or not.
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Lord, what are you doing here?
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Because on paper it looks like I'm going to graduate college and end up working at McDonald's or something.
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What's going on?
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So the final semester, seven days of revival meetings were being held in Baltimore, maryland, and I just sensed in my spirit go to these meetings.
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So I went.
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Couldn't drive yet, didn't have a car, so I took a Greyhound bus, my first time taking a Greyhound bus.
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You ever take those Greyhound buses.
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It was a shock to me because Baltimore should have been like a four and a half hour trip.
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I arrived eight and a half plus hours later.
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Like stops everywhere along the way, it was like an Indiana Jones movie, practically with the chicken cages up on top, and it was just like not an experience that I ever copied.
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That was my one time doing the Greyhound bus in an interstate and ended up in some fleabag motel and got there an hour early for the revival meetings that I spent, I remember now but three, four days saturating in.
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And I get there an hour early and immediately make a dash for the second or third row, because that's how early you had to get there to get those prime seats.
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And there was another lady that I ended up just sitting next to and eventually we struck up a conversation.
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She was on fire, jesus, and at one point we exchanged phone numbers and I actually forgot all about it.
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Well then went back, finished up college.
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I knew I needed to get to a Bible school at this point, but I had no path on how to get there.
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Even my parents were not going to support me.
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They were very supportive throughout my life, but they didn't want me going into full time ministry.
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So I understood that back then.
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And it also put all the pressure on God.
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You know he's never afraid of that.
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He doesn't mind that.
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So they weren't going to help me.
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Secretly.
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I knew they really wanted me to fall on my face so I could come to my senses and not go in that direction.
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So I graduate.
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It's now the summer of 1998.
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And I'm just waiting on the Lord.
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As I'm waiting, I realize you know when you're waiting on the Lord.
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That doesn't mean you're sitting and doing nothing, that means you're pushing into Him and you're in the Word and you're in prayer.
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And I did start going on job interviews, which was quite a wake-up call to me.
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I lived right in Forest Hills, queens, and made my resume all purdy.
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And I remember going on one in particular in Pain Webber.
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I don't think it even exists anymore.
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It was on 6th Avenue in the 50s Big Pain Webber.
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Some of you old New Yorkers remember that old, it's something.
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Now we got engaged a few blocks from there, the Big Pain Webber building.
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That's what my first realization of the scam that college can be and often is hit me Because I really wanted to honor my God.
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I didn't want to just wing college and then just go off to Bible college.
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So I studied hard and I took I was a double major in business management and English literature and I graduated with 150 credits in four years, which should have taken exactly five years.