Voicing Our Hearts: The Transformative Power of Prayer

0:10 Music playing. Welcome to the City Light Church podcast. Thanks for joining us today as we look into God's Word and discover the hope and truth that he has for us. If you want to connect with City Light Church, feel free to visit us at citylightnyccom. That's citylightnyccom. Pastor Boyan Jansik and his team believe that the power of the Holy Spirit is already working in our hearts and minds.

0:52 As you listen to today's teaching, remember that you are deeply loved by God, that you are surrounded by His grace and that he has a real hope and a future for you. Music playing. I remember nearly 20 years ago I was given a BMW three series, but nevertheless BMW Music playing and the Lord was working on me to train myself to respond with praise when negative things happen. I had just been learning about the principle of first words.

1:34 When you have an interruption in your life, when you get a negative report, when something bad happens, the first words you speak out of your mouth will determine the road, the course that you take, concerning that negative event. And I was in this awesome beamer. The Lord is teaching me this and I see somebody coming from my right and she's on her cell phone and I see out of the corner of my eye. I see this and she's laughing her head off on her cell phone, so she's oblivious to everything around her and she cuts me off and just whacks it and I stop.

2:29 As soon as she whacked me. I feel like I need to specify as soon as she hit my car. I am in New York City, after all. She didn't off me, she hit my car. I just lifted my hands up. I was being trained by the Lord and I said Hallelujah, lord, you're going to do something great Now. She hit me hard, you know, have you ever been hit while driving? The first shock is how loud it is. Do you remember that? The first, what you hear in the movie you can't replicate what you experience in real life.

3:12 You get hit and it's like kakong. The whole car shakes. I lift up my hands and say, jesus, you're going to do something great. I think I also said this will result in your glory. And now I get out of the car and I'm going let's see the damage. She gets out of her car and is very anxiously approaching my car and we both start looking at my car and we go around the entire front bumper and the hood and there isn't a scratch on it. There's not a scratch on it.

3:54 It doesn't make any sense in the natural. She knew she hit me. I heard the crash and there wasn't a scratch on it. It was something that I believed that the Lord did miraculously to teach me the importance of first words, the importance of opening your mouth, the importance of giving him glory and praising him when supposedly bad things happen. I say supposedly because you don't know how it's going to turn out, but when you get that negative report, when it seems like you've gotten a life interruption and not the divine kind, not the good kind.

4:41 Your words make all the difference and this is why the Bible commands you to praise him. It commands you to praise him. The scripture says to shout unto the Lord with the voice of depression, with the voice of triumph. These are instructions not on how to behave when you're on the mountaintop, these are instructions on how to behave when you're in the valley or in the pit of despair. Even it's easy. You know what's always funny to me? A couple that gets newly married what their first worship service in church is like after they get married.

5:29 The guy who's never lifted his hands is like praise the Lord. There's all this hand, they're all so happy and filled with joy and there's this exuberance. And I'm going where was this? I'm happy that you're happy, but nah, that was in you. You didn't let it come out of you. Something stifled you. You told yourself every reason, whatever excuses you had, but, and then it tapers down. But that's how we can be. Every time it's time to worship and praise the Lord. Now I'm saying these things because I'm after your breakthrough. I'm after what's good for you, not because I want more rah-rah in the service, but when I take the mic after worship and there's after again.

6:27 Look at the ceiling, let's somebody think I'm talking about them. And then I see there's some people and they're just kind of like looking at a dot. They got the hundred yards stair and they're just kind of waiting for it to be over, or they're thinking about what they're going to do later in the day or what's up ahead in the week. And my heart just breaks because you know they're missing out. And if you can't do it in here, where it's easy, how will you do it when there's a life interruption of the Satanic kind?

7:07 But you shouting unto the Lord with the voice of triumph, you having a hallelujah anyhow, you get a bad phone call, you receive a terrible email, there's some kind of strife in your life. You have to train yourself to hallelujah Lord. I'm in the palm of your hand and I thank you. You are faithful and true and you're working it out. I trust in you. I shout unto you with the voice of triumph. If you can't do it in here, we're all gathered together and you have a whole worship team leading you. And how will you do it when the rubber meets the road? No pun intended.

7:53 So this is something that we have to get, we have to get better in. There's those who are already like this is the wildest church I've ever been in. What are you asking of them? But we have to reach a point of critical mass. That's usually around 65%. We have to reach a point of critical mass of radical, dedicated on fire believers who are yes, yes, they're expressive.

8:39 This is not a style thing, this is not a denomination thing, this is not a personality thing. This is a Bible thing. There has to be an expression. You look at everyone who received a miracle from Jesus. There was a hunger and a faith manifested with an expression. He was healed and went walking and leaping and praising God. Can you imagine, emily, my wife Emily would whittle away, emotional whittle away and die if I just had an expressionless marriage.

9:23 How do you do, wife? You know I love you. I wrote you a letter about it before we got married. There has to be a passion that's expressed and you read the Psalms. You cannot deny that there is a passion there. You say, well, I'm not an expressive person. Yes, you are. Yes, oh, no, I'm shy. No, if you were right now getting on a subway train and you were holding the door for someone and somehow the door's malfunctioned and caught your finger and the door's jammed on your finger, you would not say Cheerio, good people, perchance, is there anybody on the subway car that could help me out?

10:12 You would very expressively say, ah, somebody pull me out of here. All of a sudden, what happened to your shyness and your introvertedness? Your passion came out Again. This is not a personality thing, this is a Bible thing and I'm after it because I know your breakthrough is on the other end of it. It is Lifting up the hands. It's not a denomination thing. You see it in the Scriptures Over.

10:53 And David said Lord, in Psalm 67, this is how I'm going to bless you while I live, I will lift up my hands to your name. Paul said I want everywhere men lifting up holy hands without wrath or doubting. That means don't be angry, don't be confused. Lift up your holy hands, and I'll never forget. That was the weird thing to me when I first became a Christian. I could deal, even speaking in tongues, because it was explained to me. I understood it and to me it was cool and supernatural, it was awesome. But then the people lifting up their hands.

11:35 I thought to myself now this is starting to look fanatical. I want a cool Christianity that I can export. But this lifting up the hands, that's probably all the movies I'd seen beforehand, maybe. I saw some videos of some snake handlers in the Appalachian Mountains and I associated it with the fanatic lifting up the hands. So it wasn't until I was saved in 92, it wasn't until my first year of college in 94, in a church out in Long Island, everybody would lift their hands and I would think you know what? I'm going to give this a try. I'm sensing the Lord, I'm wanting to just worship Him.

12:19 And it was the eternal struggle to get half-messed. Just, you know, a lot of us have main character syndrome we think everybody's looking at us, we think people are judging us, we think we're so interesting. Nobody really cares. They don't, they're too busy thinking that everyone's looking at them. So in my mind I thought the whole church is going to look at me. And why did it take so much for my hands to get half-messed? Because there was breakthrough there. There was something about surrender, there was something about the Prince of the Power of the Air and you lifting up your hands into the air and saying this is my space, even totally secular humanists.

13:13 What's his name? The motivational speaker with a face like a horse, tony Robbins. By what, you all knew who I was talking about right away. Don't look at me like how could you say that? You knew who I was talking about right away. You need to repent. That was a test. I wanted to see if you would get in on it and you all laughed right away. Totally secular. But he will say in the morning the first thing you should do is take a wide stance, lift up your arms in a V shape, because there is a mind-body connection and it prepares you for a day of victory.

13:59 Your physiology changes when you lift up your hands for 30 seconds. That's just him, from a totally secular, humanistic point of view, never mind the spiritual of what you're actually saying I surrender. You're saying I worship you and you're in a place of receiving. But these are the expressions that have somehow just been relegated to oh, that's charismatic, oh, that's Pentecostal. No, it's Bible, and it is Bible to shout unto the Lord with the voice of triumph, to open your mouth, especially, especially when you don't feel like it.

14:45 That's where the victory is. Anybody can praise him on the mountaintop Hallelujah. Death and life are in the power of the tongue. And they that love it. What is it in that sentence? They that love it will eat the fruit thereof. They that love what, they that love the truth that death and life are in the power of the tongue, they that love the fact that God created you in his similitude, in his image, and that the same creative power he has in his mouth he put in yours.

15:37 And so you just look, it seems like I'm harping on a little thing, but this is so big. There's so many exhortations in the Bible for God's people to open their mouths and speak. Over and over again in the Psalms. Just let it stand out to you. Every time the Psalm says I will say, I will say of the Lord, he is my refuge, my strength, my high tower, my fortress, my shield, my buckler I will say not, I will think not, I will write, I will say and so the enemy is not worried, he's not intimidated of God's people coming together, and half of them during a crescendo like that, where it was our opportunity to really let the maker and king of heaven know, to make a declaration here in New York City.

16:34 He's not intimidated, he's not bothered, he loves it when a chunk of us are just I'm after your breakthrough there is a satanic gorilla glue and he comes and he applies it on people's lips. I used to say crazy glue but nobody knew what I was talking about. It was an outdated reference. It's gorilla glue now. You remember crazy glue, the guy with the hard hat, this thing Awesome. Four people are in their 40s. That's beautiful.

17:15 You want some gorilla glue, super glue. It's good glue. The thing that holds up my smartphone and my dashboard. You know it comes with a suction and it just kept falling off, falling off and I was like you know what? I don't care what it does to the resale value gorilla glue right on the dashboard. It's been like a statue ever since. He loves to come with that gorilla glue, put it on your lips, especially when you're going through it and you're just. If you're quiet, you're not creating, but when you begin to speak, especially when you're praising him, some of you you've never shouted hallelujah out loud and I'm glad for that.

18:08 I'm glad only because it shows that we're a growing church and there's people at all different levels in their Christianity. I'm glad you don't want to become just like this incestual blessed me club of 20 people that have all known each other for the last 20 years and they're all hallelujah people. But there's a disease in church known as koinonitis. You know, koinonia is the Greek word for fellowship. That's beautiful, but when there's no new people coming in that are not evangelizing and the church isn't growing and no one's getting saved, then it just becomes this inbred, impenetrable social club and then you have the disease of koinonitis.

18:56 So I'm glad that there's different people at different levels. I'm after those. You may be like me in 94 where I couldn't get past half-mast and when I finally did, oh, it changed a lot of things. I want to give you permission this morning to be expressive. You notice that Jesus never quieted anybody. I always found that fascinating. That is awesome, it's beautiful. He never shi anyone.

19:37 You think about what it looked like when he was ministering all the kids running around. They didn't have children's church. Then Babies crying, kids running around, people talking amongst themselves and then people crying out. Now the religious quieted people blind. Bartimaeus shouted "'Son of David, have mercy on me'". And it says they all went shh, don't bother him. And you know what his response was. It says he cried out all the more "'Son of David? have mercy on me'" and that caught Jesus' eye and released the anointing that made old blind Bartimaeus see again.

20:26 I mean, almost every miracle of healing falls under this category. But I was always especially intrigued with the paralytic and his friends that climbed up to the house and ripped the roof off of a house. It says Jesus seeing their faith. You would think he would say "'What have you done to this nice man's roof'. But Jesus was like "'Well, we'll get to the roof. I'll send you a love offering'". My ministry's gotta covered, but he saw their faith. It matters.

21:06 It matters If you're locked up, you prevent God from touching you and bringing into your life what he wants to bring into your life. And there's all these reasons and lies. I was taught something in Bible school, just about life. I'll never forget. I was just teaching my son this last week. I'll never forget the statement Excuses are lies. All excuses are lies. Excuses we give other people, excuses we make for ourselves they're all lies. So whatever excuses you've been telling yourself oh, that's not my personality.

21:50 Oh, that sounds too radical or fanatical. Oh, I'll do it in the privacy of my own home. You should be willing to do it anywhere, and you're blessed to live in New York City where you could do it anywhere and no one will even look twice. You can do it on a subway platform. You can lift both hands and shout in tongues if people walk right past you and not even pay you any mind. I'm just reminded yesterday, when you came into the house, I closed on the house. It was amazing.

22:31 So Mauricio came over yesterday and he came in already drunk in the Holy Spirit. I heard him laughing in the driveway and so I opened the door. He comes in and I immediately just let out a praise in a heavenly language. He joins me in. Now there's no furniture in the place and it's stone floor, so it just echoes. I mean, it was like you had a sound stage and then there was one of those speed walk. I love the suburbs. I'm getting used to suburb culture. I didn't know speed walking was still a thing, but I guess it's like I think of the 90s and mall walkers. But she was you know, I don't want to imitate it, but and she looked in like who are these people?

23:15 Are they Middle Eastern or what language was that that I just heard? I just gave her the nod. There goes the neighborhood. Hallelujah. God wants you to have an experience. Our Christianity has to be an experiential Christianity. I want you to just open up your heart right now.

23:57 Those of you joining us online, welcome to City Light Church, right where you are. Just take a moment and let your guard down. That wall that slowly gets put up over our heart. Let it drop. Forgive whoever you need to forgive. If you're suffering from condemnation, look to the blood of Jesus. Then forgive yourself, as Christ has forgiven you. Some people don't praise Him. They're not expressive, because they say, well, I'm not worthy, that doesn't matter, he's still worthy. Who are you to stop praising Him just because you think you're not worthy, because you don't have a full revelation of the depth of the cleansing of the blood of Jesus?

24:44 But he's still worthy. Open up your heart and know this that our God is a God of experience. Abraham became the father of many nations because he had an experience with God. Moses, he led the children of Israel out of Egypt because God appeared to him in a bush, in a fire in the bush. The bush was not consumed, but Moses had an experience.

25:25 David had an experience. Elijah had an experience. Elisha had an experience. Every one of the patriarchs had an experience. Jacob, he had an experience. Layed his head on a stone, they were built different back then. I love my temper. Peter. Jacob finds a nice rock to use as a pillow and he realizes. He says there was something about that place. This is the very portal to heaven, the stairway to God. He had an experience that marked him forever. And then, as our ultimate example, jesus had an experience.

26:08 He came up out of the water. Do you know how the father welcomed his son into ministry, into his mission, into what he was put on earth to do with an experience? The heavens opened and the Holy Spirit alighted upon him, descending from heaven like a dove and then, even more as an example to us, 120 in the upper room. No one had preached the gospel yet, but they were all filled with the Holy Spirit. They had an experience. And then the world was turned upside down. God wants to give you an experience.

26:49 God wants you to have a consistent, experiential Christianity, consistent Every week. Ask him, lord, I wanna experience your love. I wanna experience your voice. I wanna experience your shepherd-like leading and guiding. I wanna experience the miraculous. Begin to pursue him and watch what he does. Oh, he loves to answer prayers like that, the apostle Paul. He wrote the Ephesians. He said I pray for you that you would experientially know the love of God, which cannot be, cannot be intellectually known.

27:32 That's the apostle Paul. I pray that you would experientially know, because he can't be known intellectually. I've been thinking about this all week for my son. He just turned nine a couple of months ago and I feel like the Lord has been visiting me. Let me clarify what that means. Sometimes the Lord has been visiting me for some. Oh, did the number of lumens in your room go up several orders of magnitude when he visited you? So let me that's preacher talk.

28:13 Sometimes, you know, he said the Lord has been visiting me. Here's what I mean. I'm eating chips on my sofa, thinking about something other than God and all of a sudden on the inside I'm thinking of my son and I see him getting touched by the Holy Spirit. So that happens once, that happens twice, that happens over the course of the week. That's what I mean by the Lord was visiting me Forgive me for that preacherism and I discern this is the Lord telling me that he wants to take Victor to the next level. Sure, city kids is nice. Sure, the Bible stories are nice and we pray together as a family.

28:55 That's nice. But now he needs to experience the experiential God. And then, out of the blue, pastor Murray's a good friend of mine text me yesterday and says the exact same thing he said. I later said I said I said why are you writing me this? He didn't know. He said I've been in an extended time of prayer and seeking the Lord and he's ministering at another person's church today and he's like I was in preparation. I've been like hearing the Lord like never before and I sense that for you and I sent you that text and I said you couldn't be more right on why is this important to the Lord?

29:42 Because there's a lot of theories out there, a lot of chit-chatter, a lot of opinions. I don't know if you've noticed, but culture in America is radically shifting. A lot of theories, but when you have an experience, you have an advantage because a man or a woman with an experience they are never at the mercy of a man or woman with just a theory. So you're invited into an experiential Christianity by the Lord and those of you who are already experiencing that.

30:22 I hear the Lord saying there's an invitation to go deeper. There's an invitation. I'm never satisfied. I want to walk down the street vibrating with the glory of God. I want to be getting coffee at the corner bodega and just be arrested as the Lord whispers to me. Do you know that Jesus said the Holy Spirit, he's the great comforter. He will come to you and show you things to come. He will tell you things to come. What does that mean? It means he's going to tell you the future. Everybody wants to know the future.

31:04 People pay big money all over New York City for the readings and all that witchcraft and that occultism, and Jesus doesn't charge you things that you can receive. The Holy Spirit. He will tell you things to come. But the catch is, in order to receive that, to hear that, you have to be heavenly minded. And the thing is you can't force yourself. That's what I found All the exhortations to be heavenly minded. They used to frustrate me because you cannot psych yourself up into being heavenly minded. I've tried, all right. I'm tired of the way I've been living life. Today's Monday, I'm going to be heavenly minded. Go.

31:44 You can't. It works for like the first two times, and then you're carnally minded again, overwhelmed with the cares of this world. Being heavenly minded is a consequence and a direct result out of an experiential relationship with the Lord. When you're talking to him and he's warming your heart, he's flowing out of your spirit, there's an ease to everything. There's an ease. And to those of you who you think you're distant, notice I say you think you're distant Because the Bible says because of the blood of Jesus, you who are on the outside have been brought near, have been brought close.

32:28 But I understand when you're overwhelmed with the cares of this world, you think you're far from God. You think you're distant. What's the secret? Start talking to God, just start talking to him. Open your mouth and just start talking to him. When you're under attack, when you're in a dry place, it may be hard to talk to him for more than three minutes. Fine, talk to him for three minutes and then do it again an hour later and salt and pepper and interspersed your day then with three minute spurts, say what should I talk to him about? That's between you and the Lord.

33:08 Talk to him about, just talk to him. There's other ways I can teach on the principles of prayer, how to pray effectively, and there are certain principles you can apply. But just forget that for now, you just need to open up your mouth and talk to your heavenly Father, and he doesn't mind. The Lord is so awesome. Can I confess something to you? I've already confessed it during 21 days of prayer and fasting and I sometimes think my confessions are the greatest hindrance to church growth here at City Light. But I'm gonna confess anyway.

33:54 City Light won't pay for therapy sessions for me, so I'm forced to make the congregation my therapist. No, I want you to learn and I wanna share this. No, I have been bored to tears by listening to some people pray, and don't tell me you haven't either. Have you ever listened to someone pray for like 10 minutes? You don't know one thing. They said You're like, what are you even? Like? My mind is melting. My IQ just dropped 50 points just listening to you go around and around and oh, father, god, lord, we just, we just, we just. Lord, god, father, god, lord, god, we just wanna, we just. I feel like if we were to listen and on heaven, it's just, we just, we just, we just wanna, we just.

34:39 Father, god, father, god, oh God, oh God, oh, god, father, god, we just, we just want. And I was thinking that, right, as somebody was just not here, by the way, never here. No, it's his other prayer meetings. I've been attending Another church in desperate need of revival not here, though and I'm having this thought, and the Lord, the Lord just warms my heart with his love and his patience, and you know he, he just receives things in a different way For me, in the natural.

35:22 I'm just thinking somebody's just like will you just say something that I don't even know how to translate? Your prayer, it doesn't have a beginning, middle and end, it's just words. It's like this prayer salad, but the Lord is hearing their heart and it's music to his ears and he's just after our heart. Hallelujah, and so you can't go wrong is what I'm saying in talking to him. Don't ever feel intimidated, or what will he think?

36:02 He loves you, he wants to hear from you. I'm so glad that the person who led me to the Lord about a weekend. I asked him how do I pray? Well, what is prayer? And he said it's picking up the phone and talking to your best friend. That set me free. That statement, actually, in the beginning of my Christianity, set me free to walk on a road of intimacy and not be intimidated, cause so many people are intimidated of prayer. I don't want to bother him. I know he's busy and he's so big and so strong and powerful and who am I? And so they quickly come in with a grocery list of prayer. Say amen and peace out. No, open up your heart. You know what the psalmist said Pour out your complaints before him.

36:49 So, although we're to speak victory and speak positively, there is space for you to tell the Lord how you're feeling, how you're doing. Tell the Lord your questions about life, about him, about your faith. Open up to him and watch what he does. But you have to say it out loud. You have to speak to him about these things. You have to. There was something about our words giving permission to the Lord. Are you hearing me, yo, who Blasphemy, blasphemy. The Lord doesn't need our permission Many times he won't violate his own word and his word has said you still are a sovereign agent.

37:44 You know the story of how the Lord saved me. Many of you do. Just came crashing into my life and wasn't really looking for him. He put a hunger in me, just rescued me. I always tell that story, but there's another story that happened about six years before then that I don't often share because it's odd, it was in the mid-80s, like 86, 87. No more like 85, 86. And my father was going through a very, very difficult time in his life. He thought he was very ill and he was watching a TV preacher by the name of Jimmy Swagger and I thought he had lost his mind and my mom was like he had lost his mind.

38:35 Coming from Yugoslavia, there are two terrible things that can happen to you when you move to America, any Eastern European country. There's two horrible things, two snares in America you have to look out for as an immigrant One drugs. Two religious fanaticism. Those are the two awful things, and not the fornication, not the sex, not all that other degeneracy, but religious fanaticism and drugs. And so we're looking at my dad like this is it's proof he's lost his mind. And he calls me and my mom over and he says he's gonna say this prayer at the end.

39:17 Let's all come in and say it. So my mom and I he has tears running down his face and we huddle and we say a prayer. I don't even know what I said. Later I realized, hey, if it was the prayer at the end of the TV show, at the end of the preaching segment. It was a type of the sinner's prayer and but I didn't even know the word, I didn't even know what I was saying, I just mouthed off some prayer and then that ended and we never talked about God ever again for years. My dad didn't continue. My dad didn't read the Bible. It was just because, when the crisis lifted, his pursuit for God lifted and it was just like business as usual, like it never, ever happened.

40:04 But what? Six years later, the Lord came crashing into our lives. Through me and then my parents were one. I've often wondered could it be that the reason he came crashing in so aggressively, violently into our lives was because six years before, even though we didn't know what we were mouthing off, we legally asked him to, we legally opened up our lives for him to invade? Words matter. You were saved and forgiven of all your sins by the words of your mouth. You confessed with your mouth and believed in your heart.

40:48 We, in that prayer, only confessed with our mouth. We didn't really believe in our heart, but there's still some kind of power to words. So be careful when you say I'll never do this again and it's something you know you should do, something the Lord is calling you to. You can bind yourself up, legally speaking, with your words. Don't curse your life like that. Hallelujah. I'm feeling like we should sing a song to Jesus. The Lord wants to just breathe fresh on you.

41:29 Our church is in a special place. You know how. I know. I just know. I just know. It's like when you go outside and you smell the air and you know it's gonna rain. I just know there's some shift happening. Somehow it's tied to this whole house thing. That happened. It happened. I wasn't believing for it, I wasn't pressing in for it. In a space of nine days, we went from flooded Brooklyn condo to making an offer on a house. We went to the house. We went to the house. We went to the house. We made an offer on a house miraculously, and then we had already planned on vacationing overseas.

42:13 And then we make an offer on the house and the first question Emily had was are we still going on vacation? Because this is not a time to be leaving the country. There's so many things that can go wrong with a deal like this. I looked at her. I said, in Jesus name, we're going on vacation. Yes, we are. And I got crazy calls and emails while on vacation and there was so many things that could you know how it is so many things. And then it went over. I had that interest rate lock at a delicious 6.1. And now it's like 7.3 or something. And so it went over that because the deal kept being put into the future.

42:55 And now the mortgage company is like already $2,500. If you want to extend it another two weeks, I mean that's a no brainer, finance wise, but now I'm just being extorted, but okay. And then, right before the closing, I do the house inspection and I keep do you mind if I say what you do? He's a man of many talents but his primary profession is an attorney and he focuses on real estate Brian Anderson there. And right before the closing, I do the final walkthrough. And they took all the mirrors down in the bathroom. And now my lawyer had explained the way that works is, if you take a house, flip it upside down, whatever comes out, they can take, but whatever sticks, I mean it was like fixed to the wall, now there's no mirrors.

43:41 And I had a great attorney and he was like you know, we're gonna get those. They'll either compensate you. And I'm like you know what, let him have the mirrors. I don't want to frustrate this at all, I don't want to mess with it. Let's just close. Because there was so many, it was a miracle. And then we just closed on Friday. Why am I saying all this One? It was a major victory. But I feel, because of the way God did it, this wasn't me just thinking about something, talking about something saving for something, believing for something, and it was supernatural. It was absolutely supernatural. Our lives have completely changed in just a few months and I just want to encourage some of you.

44:21 How does that saying go? There's weeks where nothing happens and then days where years happen, or something like that. But I think I'm like you know, lord, it's been a quiet year. Really, I always want to see you taking me, lord, from glory to glory. I want to look back and say look what the Lord has done. But sometimes you'll just have a quiet year. You'll have a quiet several years Like nothing is happening, and then all of a sudden, in three months and you're at a whole nother level, and I believe the Lord did it as a sign to me about what he wants to do at City Light Church and I sense it in the air. There is a hunger here and sometimes you're just entering and there's stuff that you can't put into words because it's too deep for us.

45:10 There's just a chai rose moment. You know that word. Chai rose, it means the time, the time, not the time. That's chronos chronometer. But chai roses were. Time and destiny collide when you're in the appointed time, the set time of the Father. Jesus came at a chai rose moment in human history, at the time appointed by the Father, and I believe we're just entering into a chai rose moment for City Light Church. Hallelujah. This is the City Light Church podcast. If you've missed any part of today's message or if you would like to find out more about Pastor Boyan Jansic in City Light Church, visit us at citylightnyccom.

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